Showing posts with label success. Show all posts
Showing posts with label success. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Exercise Note 6

Today I was jogging. One of a series of exercises that are separated by long periods of physical stagnation (weeks between exercises, unlike 2 or so years ago when I used to exercise daily), as well as what I can almost call a curious personal transformation where my feelings are a blend of concentration, hope, sacrifice, and a bit of sadness that I haven't seen great results out of my hard work.

I jogged. I few minutes after, I felt this is going to be another dull exercise where I don't work out much. I kept going just to see how it goes, knowing the basic fact that it sometimes does get better and I should just keep going despite feeling heavy. At least a little more pushing will help me reap better health benefits out of the exercise.

I kept going and after a while it started to feel great. I felt that my breathing became more routine, easier, and automatic and the feeling that I well stop out of tiredness or lack of energy, well, that is what stopped actually and I kept going. I felt power in my lungs and my body felt like a machine, as I think it should (a flash of thought of my eating habits the last few days might be a factor in this, not going to detail this here). My brain was sparking with thoughts and dedication. This was a great exercise today. A successful exercise that lasted an hour. That's including some time walking and stretching at the end. I think I ran for half an hour at the start of the exercise; I didn't carry my phone or headphones with me as I most often do when I go exercise outside.

I don't go to the gym by the way, I jog outside and I do pass a nearby gym every time I go exercise. I think the lovely air outside and the dynamic scenery beats the dull feeling of equipment, air conditioning, and the static view of the gym by miles.

Now I'm back home to write this and I think, maybe the only thing that I need to do is just continue working on my projects and the great feelings of success will come. A few more feature sprints to develop my product further, then the sprints might accelerate or prospective customers will start noticing the advantages of my product, and/or I'll finally learn how to show the value of my products to the market more effectively.

This is my plan. Keep going for as long as I can and see what will happen. I hope it will be like my jog today: eventually great things will happen and I'll have a rational basis for feeling great. My great feelings will be a nice thought.

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I realize it's been a couple of years since I last blogged here! I'm surprised it's been that long! I think I have written things during this time, but haven't posted it for some reason, including not feeling open at all, or not taking the time to do an actual structured write up.

The last "exercise note" I wrote was actually more than THREE years ago! There must be some exercise note 6 that I haven't posted... I might update this if I find it.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

ركضت

ركضتُ ضِعْف المسافة التي أركضها عادةً و بِضعْف الحماس. أركض لأزيل الحُزْنَ الذي تعفن في رأسي و الذي لُمتُ أهلي بسببه لمدة طويلة، طويلة لحد الندم على ضياع الوقت، الحب و استبدالهما بالندم، الخوف و البُعْد.

أثار ركضي الكثيرين الناطقين و مثلهم غير الناطقين، المجانين الذين أتى واحدٌ منهم مصدراً أصواتاً متشنجة و متحمسة لا أدري إنْ كانت ساخرة أو مشجعة.

ركضت بقوة الجسد و الفِكر. كانت الموسيقى هذه المرة إيقاع الخطوات و الأنفاس التي تتخللها خيالات بمستقبل لا نحتاج فيه الى رأتين و قلب؛ فقد نجد طريقة أخرى لإيصال الأكسجين و الغذاء الى الخلايا (خاصة خلايا الدماغ)، و أفكار عن أجهزة برمجية تستطيع القياس بلا حدود فتتعلم من الموسيقى أو حتى أشكال النباتات هياكل برمجية و أنماط تحكم، تراكيب بيانات و خوارزميات معقدة دون قيود، و وعود بمستقبل باهر و ثقة و إصرار بالمضي حتى وحيداً في مسيرة خاصة للنجاح بمساهمة راقية لمن تبقى من الراقي من البشر و فخر بتحرري من ثقافات ضعيفة باستهتارها بالعقل البشري، و تقليلها من شأن الإلهام و الأحلام و فخر بقوة أبي و سُخْط على عالم ضائع صَعَّب حياته.

في صعود التلِّ قليل الانحدار، كثير التعب، لا يتبقى لي غَيْرُ أحلامي و الألم لتلهياني عن التفكير بالوقوف قليلاً أو المشي. لكني أخاف الوقوفَ فتمضي بدوني أحلامي، أو المشي فأشيخ فجأة فلا يتبقى لي غير المشي.

لست و حيداً، لكن أصدقائي القليلين وحيدون. ننتظر جميعنا متمنيين انطلاق أحدنا الى اللانهاية ملهماً أعدائنا، أحبائنا و أنفسنا و مذكراً لنا أن بقوة العلم، بعقولنا لا و لن ننتهي. و العلم لا يؤخذ إلا بقوة الإرادة. ورثت عن أبي القليل من الحكمة و الكثير من القوة، الإرادة، الذكاء، القدرة، الأصرار و الرغبة في التعويض عن عدم قدرتي على تعلم كل شيء منه و الرغبة في تجاوزه و التفوق على نجاحاته العظيمة. فهذا أحد تبريرات هوسي و شغفي أيها الضعفاء الذين أتجاهلهم كلَّ يوم كلما أتيتم بلا عقل، بلا قلب، بلا روح، و بلا أَمَلْ. لكنكم لن تزعجوني كثيراً فبينكم مِنْ مَن لا يُرِيدُ البقاء معكم الكثيرين، الذين يعلمون، مثلي، أن الحياة، عندما ننظرالى السماء و نراها أكثر من مجرد سقف، أجمل.

Monday, May 21, 2012

سعادة الفشل


Today I felt that my mental psychological responses to events have matured, fine-tuned to facilitate determination towards success. I made this observation today when I felt like I failed, I was indeed disappointed but I was very happy because that fact that I wasn't successful meant that I actually tried, and the key to success according to many success stories, is trial and learning from error.

Today I got the Third place in a competition that I really wanted to win. My application has lots of potential, but what I think it lacked and made the other applications win is their guaranteed audience and the fact that they are well-polished as final products. I obtained valuable insights about several of my applications.

I proved once more (to myself) that I really need to focus my efforts. My mind is still scattered between several ideas I’m really enthusiastic about. I need to get things in control, be really effective with time since I need to get things done before they pile up and lose all focus!